FriendWith time to killi sit and wonder,How you came accross my nameOut of bilionsThrown into the hat. Thinking of howi long to see your signs,The proof that you areMore than a daydream. i long to hear youMy friend,"Hear" your stuttersAnd your embarrasment. Though you are the personificationOf my fear.
Both SidesMindless,i watch you. Amused by yourEndless ignorance,Confused by your lack of understanding. But here i am,Mindless,i am being watched. Ignorant of thingsSurrounding me. Confused when youDont understand me.
RealPulled away from all that i lovePushed into some harsh realitythat i now call home. Show me how to run,To escape this forever. Escape from this eternityBy living my fantasy. Hide me from reality. i cant take it anymore.
TortureEmpty. Crying outFor the hollowTo be filled forever,Or for a moment. Come. Heal me,Shattered to pieces,Broken remenance. End this torture.
The Dreaded PhraseWhy...Do i torture myselfWith impossibility?Killing my heart...Or at least what is left of it. Why do i do this to you?Letting you know how i feel,Pushing you awayWith the pressure of that dreaded phrase. i wonder if anyoneCould feel that way for me...Truly feel that way. This eventual loveIs bleeding my soul dry.i cant take it anymore...
No Sympathy PleaseAttatched to meaninglessnessWith invisable strings,Keeping me from severing connection. i can't rid my mindOf your presence,You are a plague. i die inside because of you. i brought this upon myself...This incessant need for your soul. This pathetic crySounding from my throat,Keeping you here. On comes another day of misery. No sympathy please.